excel blues

-sighs-

it's 2:37 am on a saturday. :/ i should be sleeping. well technically i should be somewhere partying. but otherwise i should be sleeping.

but it's this excel template that im working on and im almost done. but then when im done, i would start thinking, maybe it should be like this instead... and -sighs-

that's where the problem starts.

but why am i blogging about it? i don't know. basta masakit na ulo ko. the other day sabi ko kay ms kim, "ayoko na pong tingnan ung BRO template... buong weekend un ang ginagawa ko... fixing the template and making a working instruction ppt presentation." tinawanan lang ako ni ms kim. hehe.

nakaka-excite kasi. pag naiisip ko ung mga possibilities. na-eexcite talaga ako. and when i think that, wow, galing nung nagawa kong template... biglang may maeencounter akong situation na... ngek, wala akong maisip. di ko lam pano sisimulan ung template. mwahaha.

kaya ayun. basta. im excited about it. gusto kong tapusin itong template na ito... i think this is one of the more complicated ones ive ever made.

sabi ko pa naman kanina kay william, i will be playing Sims LS tonight. haay. i have to finish this eh... for monday's presentation :/

btw... segue way ko lang ang mga recent happenings sa office.

pero bago yun, segue way muna ng ka-weirduhan sa office. last week, feeling ko lahat na lang ata ng tao sa office na kilala ko "found time" to talk to me. I mean, nagugulat na lang ako may mag-msg, "hi shai, u have time to talk ba?" or "shai, usap naman tayo..." and altho for different topics/issues ung pag-uusapan namin... still parang... "ano ako, si oprah???" ahahah... na-weirduhan lang talaga ako. parang all of a sudden everyone who mattered to me found out that i was a hair's strand away from resigning and thus, wanted to either talk to me about it or convince me otherwise.

anyway... it seems that i will not be resigning soon after all.

pero sabi ko nga sa friend kong si Phoe, "i was looking for excuses to resign and reasons to stay... and this guy at our office won't give me an excuse to resign... and at the same time, now more than ever, i have more reasons to stay." does that make sense? pero ganun ung na-feel ko. i was hoping kanina i would have this huge excuse to resign... but -sighs- it wasn't meant to be.

so ill be staying for now. once again, ive pushed in the shadows ung mga bagay na nagpapabigat sa puso ko. and there are plenty more, not just this guy and with what recently happened. -sighs- i guess darating ung time na i won't need an excuse to resign but i will find a reason to resign. until that time comes, ill be doing what i love to do - which is serve my hotels in the best way i can and make the lives of my colleagues easier especially when it's about report making. :-)

-goes back to her excel template-