distractions

i really should stop. with the distractions.

i think i will just wind up getting hurt at the end of it all.

yesterday had been a whirlwind of emotions. akala ko nung una mamamatay ako after my report. seriously.

i had been agonizing over that report. i told James that i didn't want to stand in front of technically the whole company and tell them my problem. James said i am simply stating facts. :-/ i felt like i was making excuses for my underperformance. haaay. i also told James the day before the big WIG session that i feel like i am not excelling in my position, ergo i am not very happy about it. he tells me, maybe i am not happy because i am being held back. :-/

anyway, i didn't die after the report. in fact, it was received with courtesy and a grain of salt naman. we discussed a lot of important things and some major questions were asked and answered. by the afternoon, i didn't feel too much of an idiot anymore.

moreover, something happened in between. haaay. i can't even say here because madami makakabasa and rumors have a tendency to become twisted and convoluted. ergo, mum's the word. basta... nawindang din ako dun.

not to mention the fact that barely the day before that, i lost that freaking bet with Wosh :-/ sabi ko kay Wosh, sige bet ulit kami next time and i will change my tactics. Sabi din ni Layds baka daw natalo ako sa bet kasi 'yung circumstances when it happened were unique... kaya daw next time dapat ibahin ko. I totally agree.

After the big WIG session, i socialized a bit. The last time kasi umuwi ako agad kaya baka naman isipin nila ang anti-social ko sobra. So I stayed behind muna and talked with the others there. Tapos na-bring up yung palm reading thing... then i had an impromptu reading for Nancy. Hindi naman talaga kami ganun ka-close before but like always, when i read people's palms, i feel like they're my closest friend na. siguro kasi i am able to read their emotions and almost their lives without having to ask them. oh well.

anyway, around 8 something, i had to leave na din kasi dumating na ang sundo ko. aalis na lang ako pero may pahabol pang distraction ulit. haaaayyy... siguro ako lang nagbibigay ng meaning to everything. as always.

then i dropped off ms Idj sa glorietta pero during the trip i read her palm pa.

later that evening, dumaan ako sa Gloria bldg kasi ask ko si Layds kng sabay sya sa akin pauwi. Kaso may kainan din pala sa kanila that night kaya napa-stay ako at nakikain. tapos nag-palm reading session na naman kami.

in fairness hindi naman ako napagod. usually kasi when i've read a lot of palms na, feeling ko drained na ako. siguro kaya i felt weak today and ni-asthma na naman ako.

Full moon this week and it's wonderful because I feel like this coming week will be super.

As for me, im distracted and confused. What's new?