bakit ganun?

i find myself at times... just thinking about you.

in the middle of working on something... your face just pops into my mind like that. without warning at all.

in the car on the way home... i think of you and wonder how your day is going.

at night, before i sleep, i look at my watch and think of what you could be doing at the moment.

pathetic. i can't help it.

did i really commit myself to this?

i have this gut feeling that if i wait for you, i would end up alone, disappointed and hurt. but i don't know what to do.

sabi ko no regrets. that's why i built up the courage to tell you. to ask you. to know if there is any possibility at all.

you gave me your answer. and it's not an answer that i was ready to hear. or that i would accept to hear.

and now... i don't know. i half want to stop being like this. and i half wished i never asked you in the first place.

this just sucks in all major ways possible.

i miss you so much. -sighs-