I needed a place to spew out my thoughts, and whilst I have friends, I don't want to burden them too much.
I started work in a new place about 4 months ago...and it is everything I have prayed for. I finally get to do what I love. It's really tough because it's a start up (I'm literally the 10th person who joined) — I'm multi-hatting and only getting 3-4 hours of sleep on weekdays but I love it. I'm excited when new projects start, when new people join... I'm so excited even if it's a little scary. When people ask me if I'm stressed, I say 'no, I'm just really tired.' My work hours are crazy but I love what I'm doing.
I think I'm being put to the test though 🤣 yesterday was the first time that I pretended work does not exist. I saw email notifications on my phone, but I pretend I don't see them. I'm so stressed out that I want to lock myself up in the bathroomand cry. I slept most of Friday but kept dreaming about work. Lol.
For certain, I'm / We're gonna get through this. I just need to take a deep breath and move one foot in front of the other. I'm gonna get through this.
Meanwhile, I have a few more hours today to pretend work doesn't exist.
Hopefully Easter brings some light back into our lives. I'm really stressed out and I can't imagine how the rest of the staff feels. I'm trying to be brave and strong for them, and for myself. I hope the light comes soon.
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