sick and tired.

This week is hell.

The only thing that keeps me going these days are my excel training sessions. And i missed both of them this week because we had to rush some things for this Friday's Big WIG. :/

Also i am tired. And Jap's words didn't help either. He reminded me of why I had been miserable some months back. I don't want to lapse into that state of misery again but I don't know what to do.

I am tired.

All I get is a thank you, a smile, a fond look, a pat on the back... for all the extra work and stress. Sometimes it seems enough. Sometimes I feel like clinging onto my "person for others" motto... but sometimes shit happens and I just can't do it anymore.

I think I need counseling. You know... management lessons. "How to say no to extra work"... or something like that. Because that is my problem. I don't know how to say No.

I see something wrong, I want to fix it. Even at the cost of my own sanity. :/

I'm tired. I don't want to be like this anymore. Lord please help.