i hate myself

kasi nag-feeling ka eh...

good Lord... i can't even begin to express how freaking painful it feels right now.

it's almost 2am and i want to hurl thinkgs on the wall. i want to punch something hard. i want the pain to be anywhere but my heart.

see, this is the reason why ayoko aminin. ayoko isipin. ayoko talaga. kasi alam ko in the end masasaktan lang ako.

bullshit. im not mature for this.

i feel so effing stupid.

pero no regrets right. yeah. im sure a year from now, when i read this blog i'd have a diff perspective.

pero PI na perspective yan. right now, the pain is just everywhere.