year-end musings...

I feel like I'm a bomb waiting to explode lately.

I find comfort in films like 2012 and Kung Fu Panda... i know, i know... very distinct genre and very far disposition... but there's a common element - fighting, or in paraphrase - not quitting. Maybe I'm trying to listen to what the universe is trying to tell me - so that I will not make a mistake.

Maybe it's just a phase. Maybe it's that time of the year, when people get melancholy and realize a lot of things about their lives... or maybe I'm just tired. And I don't like to admit how tired I am.

I like to think that I am invincible; that I am a superwoman who can do all and be all. I dislike it very much when I get tired or when I fail - because it means I am neither superwoman nor invincible. Well, yeah, I know that already... I just don't like thinking about it too much.

As always, I am blessed and much grateful for friends who ground me when I need it the most. Last friday I spent a wonderful dinner with a friend, who enlightened me a bit about myself, my goals, and what I want to get out of life. Two days prior, I spent some 20 mins discussing with another good friend the merits of being me - of accepting who I am and not being ashamed of it.

There's a lot I don't know; and although most times, I am afraid, a lot of the other times, I feel brave because I know there are people around me who will never judge but will always seek to understand the mystery that is me.

A new year will soon dawn upon me... I wonder, as I write this, where will I be exactly 365 days from now?

Wherever that is, I know it will be a good place. ^_^