why I always shop...

I think it's a combination of:

1. I'm stressed lately; and
2. I'm sort of punishing someone for it.

-sigh- there... the ugly truth is out.

This past week has been somewhat hellish for me... why? Oh i don't know, let's start with I lost a huge amount sometime in the middle of the week. I'm so behind on a lot of things I need to finish at work. I'm juggling several responsibilities as well and my insomnia is back. Not to mention my stress-coping abilities (if i ever had any) are away on vacation. :-/

Last Thursday, I had a bout of whining session again with some of my gurlfrendz. :-/ Talk about being major irresponsible. I feel like i'm such a loser. really. i'm not coping well with the stress and right now, overwhelmed is an understatement. that's why i feel like such a loser because it isn't as if ako lang ang nakaka-experience ng ganito. I'm sure a lot of ppl at work also have this kind of dilemma... but why am i the only one breaking down? i guess i am not built for these kinds of situation. and here i thought that if i take a deep breath and face my fears, I would be able to do anything. shyeah right. -sigh-

Number 2, i think i'm punishing someone... well actually two persons. one is myself, the other is... someone else. and it's bad. but i don't know. i feel like being a kid and blaming someone else for whatever's wrong in my life. pathetic. :-/

-sigh-

Maybe i'm just in a funk and i'm gonna get out of it soon. i hope so.